Thursday, September 17, 2009 @ 1:16 AM
Back to blog.. Just finished half of my CIC project & Report for NEC (still got program part missing cause haven't do the program).. Haven't been thinking a lot of stuff recently but I keep acting that I am fine & try to stop thinking.. Well, can say I am fine or maybe not.. I also not too sure myself.. Just now when I suddenly do my work seriously, I start to think back again.. Why I choose this course? Why am I becoming like this recently? Why I can't do my work with my heart? Why I am doing my work without using my mind? Why am I this lost & empty? Guess what? My heart only have one answer.. I am just getting tired out of everything.. So why not just relax & keep my mind calm.. For what think so much? Thinking so much also won't bring anything back.. I am still here living, so at least should try to do, what can be done.. My whole life biggest regret is that I keep giving up before thing really come to an end.. Guess this time I should really try to reach for the finishing line..
Have been talking a lot to my friends recently.. They have also been telling me the same thing.. Guess I should stop acting myself.. I dun feel happy at all.. Is just that I dun wish to let them see my sad face but they still know after all.. No point acting already.. Should be myself again.. The emo & quiet me..
Going slp already.. Stop here for today..
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